For some people life is not easy there are always problems to solve and situations which could not be controlled and is hard to ignore. A huge number of pe0ple starts to experience hardships in life in their teenage years. A few how ever (believe it or not) experience hardship in life from the day they are born. I am one of the few who emotionally and psychologically suffered from the day I was born. You may wonder how could it be that I suffered on those early years. I could not blame you to doubt about it for I too has a hard time to explain it. But I will anyway have to share it with you and leave the spirit of God in me to explain it to you in a way that it would be easy for you to understand and maybe believe.

I hope that after you finish reading this you will realize that before a baby is born the body of the baby is assigned to a certain spirit. Before I go further let me remind you that; this real story which I am about to share is extremely out of this world and believe me when I say that "reality is stranger than fiction"

The yellow curtain was dancing with the wind, I like to watch it as the wind touch my skin and makes me feel good. I don't know where I was but I am ready to know. The woman keeps on talking to me and I hear her well when she said "stay here for a while I will get something down stairs" then she turn to someone near us and said "please watch the baby I will be in a hurry to get something down stairs". I want to look around but I could not move. I wonder what happen to me how could it be that I could not move easily. I look down and the first thing I saw are my small hands. I see my self covered with a blue baby cloth. As I look further I saw a person sweeping the floor. I finally arrive and I realized from that moment that this is the place where I am assigned. I wish that I did not have to leave the place where I was. It is more comforting in that place, People in that place wear white, they fall in line and everything is seems so comforting even in a situation where I know that I am not supposed to be there. Whenever they talk I could not hear a word they say. They seems to be just looking at each others eyes and understand each other just by doing so. I am not sure if they communicate that way or that I am just not allowed to hear what they are talking about. The woman or should I call her smiling angel who was often with me on my travel going to that place gives me so much comfort in every smile. I feel like she will not abandon me like I was abandon after a gunshot and my parents died (perhaps also me). Police come to rescue but they could not see me. I was under the table afraid and worried. But the angel I am with she knows where I am. She let me hold her hands, smile at me often and comfort me. She leads me to that peaceful place. Our travel going to that place is not so long but it is a travel I will never forget all my life. As I hold her hands we pass by so many lights. We seems to move fast and further where we were before. Then we get to that place where everyone wear a long white dress. All of them looks good and they are all beautiful. But their beauty could not hide their worries. It seems that a few of them are worried specially the people that are in a circle with me. They look at me with worries in their faces. Only the angel who was with me in my travel gives me comfort (it seems). Looking at their worried faces makes me more worried. I am the only person who is very short in that place all of them are taller than me. Perhaps it has to be that way because I was just a little boy. One man look at me for long then leave and go upstairs then after a while he bring a long paper with him. He instructed the smiling angel (woman) I am with and another angel (man) who hurriedly go away. Perhaps he is going to the same direction where I and the angel I am with have traveled. It is a huge dark place, there is nothing much you can see than small lights from a far. The lights usually seems to be with the spiritual beings and angels. The light goes with them or it could be that they become a light as they go to a huge dark place. After looking at the light that move further and further from us I look in the eyes of the angel who was often with me. This time I am so worried as it seems that I am not welcome there. She look at me with a smile. I told her in my soul that I am worried and I know that I will be alone to the place where I will go. But she just look at me and her eyes are like telling me that everything is going to be okay. I have no choice even if I don't want to go. I look down all I see is darkness. I am so worried to travel in that dark place alone and I wonder where I will be going and what will happen to me. It would have been better if I travel with the angel who gives me comfort with her smile but this time it seems that I will have to be alone. As I was contemplating about my destiny looking at the huge dakr place and was so worried my angel look at me one more time with a smile then suddenly a force pull me down. I see the lights again around me I move so fast that each light could be a sign that I move fast. I close my eyes out of worry. When I open them I see the yellow curtain dance with the wind.

From the time I left the place in which I feel a deep comfort I know that there is a mighty God. I also know that he is in control above all things. But I wonder if he loves me? How come he put me in this world it is full of anger, hatred, sorrow, injustice and all the negative vibes. As I experience all the bad things in my life in this world where I am detained for a while. I come to hate God almighty. I hate him for letting me be here on earth it is a very sad place. I wonder how could he leave me here? Why do I have to be here? Among all the questions that I have on my mind there is one question that is like the center of all the other questions "Does God love me?"

It took a long time for me to know the answer but it seems I come to know now. God loves me but I have to be in this world for a while. I don't know what his purpose is but I believe I will be okay. I know God almighty will never forget me so are all the angels who where around me when I was in their place. I believe that they are checking on me from time to time.

But before I realize God's love for me I have been to a lot of sufferings from my childhood until my late adult years that is when God almighty open the book of life to me. The bible is seems just a common book for everyone. Some people would not even want to read it because for them it is like a book of stories that are not interesting at all and is not well written in a way that they could easily understand what the writer or writers are talking about . For some the bible is a book of words formed int to sentences which are hard to understand. For some it is a waste of time to read. For others it is something that is not real because they don't want to accept the reality and they want to make their own reality.

On one of the books in the bible (the bible is a compilation of 66 books from 40 authors) Proverbs written by Solomon the son of David on 900 BC (Proverbs chapter 25 verse 25) it is written " Like cold water to a weary soul is good news from a distant land" There are varied interpretations about it and it is as varried as there are many peolple for each has a different interpretation than the other. Like everyone I also have my own interpretation on that.

We live in a place far from the place where there is peace, love and comfort. From that place there are divine beings to whom words from the bible comes. The writers of the bible are mainly used for them to deliver it to the people on this world. Reading the bible gives life to the readers. In a life with so much trouble, worries, uncontrollable situations like the weather and more there is much to be sad about. You may wonder why is it that people who believe in God almighty and who have read the bible wholeheartedly not seems to worry much as they should over their situation the answer could be is that God almighty open the bible for them to read and understand while some people may have read the bible over and over again but the words are not in graved in their hearts and their soul remains corrupt.